I resolve to...

So far this year I've not given much thought to resolutions for 2010, really because I find the ones made in a drunken stupor on NYE tend to have little grounding and it remains too easy to drift back to my old ways. However I've given the issue a bit of thought and if I write them down in my blog they might stay around for longer.

My main resolution for this year is...

CARRY NO GUILT

Does anyone else tend to have a sense of guilt about things in life? I do. Things like feeling guilty for not taking the dog for a second walk before it goes dark. Small I know but she relies on me.

Or feeling guilty for not packing everything that I've planned into my day.

Or feeling guilty for staying in bed longer than I should. There are plenty of hours in the day, I've just got to get on with it.

So what does 'no guilt' mean? It doesn't mean that I'm going to bumble along with numbed senses. It means that I'm going to do my best to resolve whatever it is that's gnawing away at me and if I can't do much about it, I'm not going to beat myself up about it.

A second one is...

MAKE THE EFFORT TO LOOK AND LEARN

Maybe there's something about turning 30 that made me tired of the commercial, money-grabbing world we live in. Maybe it's the result of taking up a 'craft' and happily spending days weaving scarves that could easily be bought for a pittance in Primark (not that I've ever shopped in Primark). Whatever the reason I hope to take more of an interest in what is overlooked and undervalued in our world.

Most probably I hope to learn more about things I don't know much about and have so far taken little interest in and I hope to become a more interesting person with greater integrity because of it. Not sure I've quite figured this one out yet but there's an intention to make myself a better person in there somewhere.

Also resolutions in terms of my creative life...

WEAVE MORE

Quite simple really! And open-ended so I can allow myself to pursue new areas and enjoy it. Specifically I want to use the basics that I have learnt in pattern and colour to make fabrics that are original that I can be really proud of, that expresses something unique and worthwhile. I hope to follow my instincts, build my confidence and believe in myself. That way I believe I can achieve a good result.

Finally to relieve the monotony of text and general rambling, here is a picture of Margot watching the outside world from the nice warm living room. She takes this pastime very seriously.